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So, I'm mad. Not only mad, but frustrated and a little hurt. I know to some, it might be a minute issue, but in all seriousness, in my place and position, it's rather big.

I've wanted to do/see something badly for the last few weeks, and no one else in my immediate circle has the same likings as I. So, it was hard attempting to do such a thing when no one else is remotely interested in it. So, in all hopes of someone just giving in and appeasing me, I would drop hints, or speak up about it, and no, not just little subtle hints, more like, I want to DO this, hints. One would think that someone would just finally give in, or suck it up and be like: "Ok, fine, we'll go see/do it". But, no.

Apparently, my interests are of LITTLE interest to anyone else. That, or people just don't care the fuck enough about me and my wants to appease me enough to take it upon themselves and be all: "It's ok dear, how about we do 'this' or go see 'that'.". No. Instead, I'm just to assume it doesn't matter and move on from any of the things I want to do.

Now, normally, I am fucking use to this scenerio. I am the one to SUCK it up and forget about what it is I want, and just slink down into the backseat and do what the majority rule is. Or I appease someone else and their wishes without acknowledging my own. That's typical to me. I concede and smile, even if I'm upset on the inside.

As of right now, I'm down-right fucking seething, because it's ok for you all to do something with everyone else, but when it comes to me, it's whine, whine, bitch & moan. What makes it ok when it's with other people as opposed to with me? Why couldn't you take my feelings into consideration and make the move to ask me if I wanted to see/do the same? KNOWING all along it was something I wanted?

As of right now, I'm so fucking over it. I'm to the point where I feel like I stand nowhere next to you, but rather, beneath you. Thanks for making me feel like I'm of little interest or importance to you. You can chalk yourself up to the rest of them for now.

Blah.

It fits..

Well, it's here.. and it fits.. ;]

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bah! weight watchers here i come!