[whirlwind]

save me

from all that i've done

cradle me

from all thats to come

kiss me

like its the last time you can

love me

like you'll never love again

days go by and all i do is think of you

nights come and go and all i do is dream of you

you're in my heart, my soul and my thoughts..

always.

[sigh]

I've got a shitload of things going on ATM and on my mind. I feel like no matter how ahead I get, I continually fall further backwards. It's a vicious cycle. I did finally come to terms with the whole Karl situation and finally let go enough to let another man into my life. He's a wonderful person, a wonderful father, an understanding friend and a handsome bitch. :P

I've a ton of phonecalls to make today, but as always, I'm procrastinating. I hate Dr's already and I hate that they are always finding something new wrong. I feel like a lab rat.

I already know I'm dying. Just stop telling me everytime you see me.

Maybe things will finally start picking up.

[bleh]

i opened the mail

and of course, your picture came today

already marked with an "X"

it's like they already knew you were breaking my heart.

and knew right where i'd be throwing the dart...