[sigh]

I've got a shitload of things going on ATM and on my mind. I feel like no matter how ahead I get, I continually fall further backwards. It's a vicious cycle. I did finally come to terms with the whole Karl situation and finally let go enough to let another man into my life. He's a wonderful person, a wonderful father, an understanding friend and a handsome bitch. :P

I've a ton of phonecalls to make today, but as always, I'm procrastinating. I hate Dr's already and I hate that they are always finding something new wrong. I feel like a lab rat.

I already know I'm dying. Just stop telling me everytime you see me.

Maybe things will finally start picking up.