|sinking|

everything is dark.. that's about the only way I can describe things lately..
i dont want to get out of bed, i dont want to eat, i cant tolerate people..
i write, because its all i have to depict what i'm feeling..
i'm sinking again and i fear the outcome this time.

my body aches with each motion and my lips hurt with each word muttered.
its like i cannot function, or i just chose not to, i havent figured out which yet.

i feel worthless and flawed, ugly and just unneeded and unwanted.
i'm a failure to everyone and a disappointment to the rest.

i think things that lack proper judgment, and do things that i shouldnt..
certain objects spark memories of an old me, the old me that was buried long ago..

i'm nothing. i'm lost.