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my head feels like it's going to explode..
i've never had headaches this bad, unless they were migraines..
but this, this is just pain.. and throbbing.. my god, kill me..

i have to wait an hour before i take my meds again for the night..
so, i popped a darvocet and a xanax.. again, empty stomach..
heh, sometimes, i think i'm purposely trying to get myself into an early grave..

but anyway..
i'm aggravated.. not only with pain but a lot of other junk on my mind..
i'm scattered again, just when i feel myself piecing things together, they all come apart..

i wish my life were easier..
but, it's not..

i'm alone and i'm frustrated.