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i find it easier to make little reminders of things that occur, that i cant stop..

one of them being the heart of yours i broke, all while mine was breaking with it..

you fail to see that i'm doing this for you.. not to hurt you, not to break your heart again, not to cause you grief or pain.. but, to let you go and find someone who is worthy of your heart, of your patience and time, and most of all, your love..

i cant expect you to hold on to me and wait while i find myself.. it's not fair..

i cant make promises and i cant guarantee a happy tomorrow..

i cant even focus on anything right now, i dont sleep, i cry buckets and i feel a myriad of emotions coursing through me 24 hours a day..

i wish i knew what the future was holding for both of us, but i dont.. so the only thing i know how to do is walk away and let you live..

you tell me i've no idea what love is, well, you're wrong, you shown me what it is to love and fall in love, i know love better than i've ever dreamed possible.. but with love comes responsibility, and i failed you..

for the rest of my life i'll be living with that guilt and choking on every breath i take..

death would be easier to deal with right now.. i assure you.