|melodrama|

its one of those days..
i feel utterly distant and alone..

it always seems to come in spurts..
one day good, next day, not so much..

i hate distance, i hate knowing he's too far away to touch..

as each day goes by, it gets harder to deal with..
its like an anchor that is just slowly dragging me to the bottom..

i wish i had the words at the time that i needed them..
to assure him that i need him more than i've ever needed anyone..

i wanted to look in his eyes and just stress how much i loved him..
and that all the time in the world, could never change that..
but i couldnt convey it, and i failed him and myself..
by walking away in silence, with nothing but regret and tears..

i hate waking up without him..
those 6 days spoiled me, and made me realize it's where i want to be..
in his arms.. for as long as he'll let me..

i'm going to return to being emo and crawl back into bed..
its about the only place that seems 'home', lately..