|end|

i choked on every word i typed..and i typed them, because speaking them would have killed me..
you fail to understand that i saved both of us from destruction..
and maybe someday, you will..
but for now, it's safe for you to hate me..
i hate myself.

i cant stop crying, i cant stop analyzing every possibility..
the only prominent decision was to end it, before we ended each other.
i held on long enough, and you let go too often..
i don't blame you, i never was good enough..
which is why i'm the one letting go now.

i love you, always have.